If you follow my blog page on Facebook you most likely already saw this video. I came across it in my feed the other day and I felt the words she was saying in my heart. To my core.
Yes, I’ve been busy. But you know that I don’t glorify busy. Busy isn’t an excuse or a badge. But to be honest, we are in the weeds right now. The weeds are beautiful and a gift, but they are high. They are over my head.
But that’s not the only reason I stopped blogging, or even the real reason. Y’all…I’m not good at dealing with criticism. Or ugly words. Now I’m not talking constructive criticism. I’m talking flat out unkind words. I’m not good with letting those roll off my back. You see, God made me with an extra big heart and extra thin skin. This combination HURTS.
When I put my heart out there I do so with a certain amount of confidence that it will be handled as fragile and treated with respect.
That doesn’t always happen.
And that’s the nature of the Internet.
If you put your heart out there, it becomes public property.
And that can be really, really good too. I have connected with so many women when I felt alone. Blogging got me through the really scary and lonely times in my life. And I gained a family along the way.
I also somehow I let the nasty outweigh the good.
And there is so so so so so so so so so much more good. There always has been.
So I want to come back. Because I miss you guys, and I miss sharing and learning and connecting.
I want to be that person.
So here I am, if anyone is still out there reading. I don’t know how often I’ll be writing, and I don’t know what I’ll write about, but I’m here.