We've waited and waited and WAITED.
And the little girl who is not very good at waiting…well she has been very patient.
Although she wonders (repeatedly, and audibly) why (at nearly seven) hasn't she lost a tooth?
A bit ago her first tooth started to wiggle.
And I snapped this photo of her smile. Made up of tiny teeth and so much joy.
That sweet smile she's had for so long.
2 nights ago she galloped down the stairs, her voice shaking.
MOMMY! DADDY!!! MY TOOTH IS ABOUT TO FALL OUT!
She was so scared. And SO excited. Jimmy took her in the bathroom and helped her wiggle it.
But there was blood. And she didn't like that. Not one little bit.
She panicked. Big time. And asked me to come take over.
Disclaimer: I am NOT good with wiggly teeth. They gross me out. I'm not proud of it but it's true. Major skeeve. I had goosebumps the entire time and NOT because I was overcome with emotion. Shudder.
I said a little prayer and started to wiggle that sucker.
After a little hyperventilating (on her end, not mine) and a LOT of reassurance and reminders to BREATHE…this happened.
That is just a tiny clip of a video that is a couple of minutes long.
I feel like being a mama is full of exhausting moments. Scary moments.
"What the hell am I doing?" moments.
It's a neverending cycle of feeling invisible. Cleaning up,
fixing messes, quelling fears, losing yourself.
But embedded in all of those moments there are these rare,glistening,magical moments that make all of the other stuff worthwile.
Like a precious jewel that you find unexpectedly. Those are the things that make the rest of the junk bearable.
That response was one of those moments. Her face and her voice when she saw that tooth in my hand? Pure.
That video will make me sob until the day I die. So innocent and joyful.
I can't stand it.
Also making my heart hurt? This note she left for the tooth fairy:
In case you can't see the note, it says:
Dear Tooth Fairy,
I hope you know that it was very hard to loose my first tooth. I love you and I believe in you.
Love, Harper Howell
And here is what she found from the Tooth Fairy this morning.
I made my own using PSE 9 and the "Fake Receipt" Font.
And just like that? She had a new smile.
I am so proud of her. Of her fears, her bravery…her big heart and her tears that she so easily sheds.