i don't even know where our christmas decorations are, they aren't remotely close to coming out of the attic and being put up.
my stockings aren't hung by the chimney with care…there are still pumpkins on my mantel.
i have NO plans for our thanksgiving meal. more than likely we will end up buying something pre-made from fresh market.
i have dreams of bucking tradition and eating out. 🙂
the babies turn one on thursday, i don't have their cakes yet or know where i am getting them.
i just got their birthday presents yesterday.
i'm not doing a december daily, i never have.
i don't have christmas dresses for the girls nor do i have any idea when or if i'll be getting them.
i haven't bought any christmas gifts.
we don't have a photo of all six of us (except for one in the hospital a year ago) so i'm not sure if i'll be doing christmas cards.
i haven't played any christmas music yet (i don't even know that i love christmas music all that much).
i have the ranger ball coming up on dec. 3. i don't have a dress yet, don't have a hair appointment or nail appointment. i don't know when to look for a dress with four kids under five with me all the time.
and here's the big confession? i'm feeling a tiny bit inferior this year.
but that tiny part of me is overshadowed by the part of me that's okay with it. i'm proud we are making it in the day to day.
my girls are happy and healthy, we are all together, we have a roof over our heads and food in our bellies. SO much more than SO many people.
i HAVE a family, I don't need a photo to show me that. christmas is in your heart, not in the stuff. the babies will be okay and won't even know what their cakes look like. i HAVE healthy baby girls that are turning ONE. what a gift! the girls can wear their dresses from last year. jimmy is home again this year, safe with us again for one more year.
it's so easy to get caught up in the have-nots isn't it? the things we don't have or haven't done. when in reality, none of it matters.
perspective is something i'm constantly trying to give myself.
i think today we need to find an angel tree. or give a kiva loan. i need to concentrate less on me and more on others.
the rest? is just the fun stuff. it's not the meat and bones of what life is all about.
the rest will just come together.
isn't it silly what i tend to get caught up in? after looking at this list all typed up…all i could think is WHO CARES?
happy tis the season, y'all!