The day I first saw them on the ultrasound screen I couldn't really focus on their hearts beating or the blobs on the screen.
I was shaking so hard that the entire exam table was shaking. Clattering. I was grinning but I had tears streaming down my face. And they were tears of shock.
Not Jimmy. He had the biggest ear to ear grin I'd ever seen. A grin of pure joy.
For about 24 hours I couldn't really talk to anyone, I was still shaking. Twins? Four children?
Let's be honest. Four years later...I might still be in shock. HA!
But I got over the fear and read everything I could get my hands on. We bought 2 pack and plays, a double nursing pillow, boxes and boxes of diapers, binkies in 2 different colors, bottles galore...and prayed. Prayed that my pregnancy would be a healthy and safe one. And it was.
We prayed that they would stay in my belly for as long as possible. And they did. 36 weeks.
And the first year was a BLUR. Seriously...I look at photos from the first year and I don't even remember being there. I'm not exaggerating. J was gone for most of the time and the first year was a frenzy of feeding and burping and swaddling and rocking and spit up and SO MUCH POOP and ...truthfully...lots of crying. From them and from me. And from Harper and Sadie.
From the moment they were born they have stolen our hearts. They have changed our lives and our family in so many ways. Some we could have imagined and so many that we never in a million years could have suspected.
And today they are four.
We are so in love with them. They fill this home with pure joy.
I am in awe of the way that God shaped our lives in a way that we never could have seen. He had bigger and better plans than any we had.
This life is so full. Full of laughter and screaming and hair elastics and Barbie shoes and love. It's so full of love.
Happy, happy birthday darling girls.
You are our sunshines.