I made this collage five years ago and found it here on my blog for our seventh anniversary.
There have been many more photos since then but these remain some of my most treasured and special moments so I thought I'd use it again.
Bottom row, middle : The minute he walked in the door after missing Sadie's birth. I tear up every single time I look at it.
Third row, all the way to the right: When we were in college and so completely in love we couldn't keep our hands off of each other. When I look at that photo, I feel that infatuation all over again.
Seventh row, all the way to the right: When he walked in the room after a deployment I wasn't sure he'd make it home from.
If I had snapshots of the last five years (I don't have many of these on film) here's what I'd see.
+ My face when we found out I was pregnant with number five. Shock and a little bit of fear, and Jimmy standing in the corner of the restroom with the biggest smile I've ever seen.
+ Us seeing two heartbeats on an ultrasound in Fort Benning, Georigia five years ago.
+ Celebrating our eleventh anniversary in Paris. Having hard conversations but coming home closer than we've ever been.
+ Deployments, training, and constantly being apart. But the reunions, oh the reunions. The sweetest thing in the world. Nothing compares and it truly makes all the aparts worth it.
+ Learning to navigate life in a foreign country together.
+ Having an entire year TOGETHER while he was in Rhode Island for school. Having almost every single breakfast and dinner together for 365 days and driving each other a little bit nuts but mainly just loving it.
+ Lots of everyday stuff. Raising four little people. Disagreements, hard decisions, laughing until we cry. Vacations, texts, being apart a lot, being together some. Frustrations, pure happiness, life.
This life together has taken us so many places (literally and emotionally) that I never could have begun to imagine. The past 12 years have held the most intense fear and the most overwhelming joy that I have ever known. Sometimes in the same exact moment.
There is nowhwere I'd rather be than by his side. Whether it's on the couch holding hands and watching a scary movie...or in a room surrounded by other people.
He is it for me.
Home. Love. Grace.
Happy 12th, Jimmy.