is it ironic that a beginning can also seem like an ending??
on saturday afternoon, both of my baby girls took their first steps.
cate first…she let go of my fingers with a grin firmly in place. and she took two wobbly steps before collapsing in my arms with a giggle.
lucy girl was next. she took two lunging steps, interrupting jimmy right as he was saying "who knows when she'll walk with those thunder thi….".
i remember harper's first steps (to jimmy, in her bedroom at 12 months old) and sadie's first steps (to my mother-jimmy was deployed-at 10 months old). i remember them like they were yesterday. but they weren't.
and as the girls walked to me, i tried to hide my teary eyes with loud laughter and whoops of joy. but a tear or two escaped as it hit me-
"these are the last first steps i will witness".
and i think i am okay with that, but it breaks my heart a little bit.
i know there will be so many more firsts. so many more. but for a moment i wanted to treasure THESE first steps. savor them, revel in them, imprint them in my memory.
the day both of my babies walked.my last babies.
now? on to something new. 🙂 BABY CAGES. just kidding. sort of. leashes?
xoxo
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